Friday, 15 October 2010

Books and Covers

I just finished, in a slightly extended evening reading session - which I regretted as soon as I realised it was past 1 o'clock - Super Sad True Love Story by Gary Shteyngart, a slightly depressing view of a not-so-distant future where an entire population relies upon their personal electronic devices as the almost sole method of communication, self-promotion and validation of their own existence. Possibly contradicting the message put forth by the book, I remembered I wanted to start a blog.


The book presented a disturbing look at a more than credible future where credit, style and youth are correlated and used to create continuous feedback to the ultra-connected to rank themselves against those in the immediate vicinity. While this bleak near-future scenario should be dominant in my mind time and again I found my thoughts drifting to the front cover. A lurid and unappealing selection of bright colours and reflective silver that even a child dosed up on Ritalin could not fail to get hyperactive from. While the subject matter, title nor blurb would have stood as a barrier, I would not have picked up this book were it not chosen for me by a book group. This leads me to the question: why?

Have I inherently become everything I despise, narrow-minded and ignorant, avoiding anything outside my own comfort zone or interests? Probably. In my mind, there is a reason why marketing exists. A whole range of individuals spend their days attempting to market items I would like, to me in a way that I will like. When I see a cardboard case for a cd that has delicate fold out booklets and intricate writings a part of me wants to congratulate the cold, corporate sell-out who decided the extra cost was worth it for the fact that consumers as foolish as me would fork out the extra cash, yet still sleep easy at night. Safe in knowing that we're better than the Joe Mc-Girls Aloud masses. They don't appreciate cardboard. They don't like intricate annotations. Or rough and ready sketches. Or incomplete poetic musings.

And marketing knows this. So why give the book such a horrible cover?

Monday, 29 March 2010

Handing in my notice.

Joining in the Spring of discontent here in the United Kingdom of Half-Hearted Protest, I decided to hand in my notice from my exceptionally inane, yet conscience reinforcing charity job. (I basically save the world one spreadsheet at a time.) In hindsight, this was a good decision for my general sanity, but a bad decision for my finances which are experiencing Black Groundhog Day, economic woe en perpétuité.

This was a liberating moment, though something I slightly forced myself into by telling everyone around me as often as I could that I was definitely leaving. My moment has been slightly nulled by the fact that people have congratulated my decision. Either they agree that I have become a guinea pig in a box, thrown the occasional knaw stick to keep me quiet, (or quieter as guinea pigs don't really make much noise), or more cunningly, they are taking revenge on me for my reckless abandonment of charity, the dying children and the survival of all mankind, with their clever reverse psychology.

Regardless of whether my decision was right or wrong, I now have to job-hunt. I found some good jobs on useful jobsites. Then I found some I could apply to. Then I decided to write a blog.

Things to come....

In the spirit of defining myself as different in a world of conformity, I have decided to join the masses and write my inane thoughts onto the web. Here, I aim to reassure myself that I truly am an individual, by joining the homogeneous mass of self-involved obsessives struggling to make their voice heard in a world where it really doesn't matter what we think and none of us should bother.

Maybe I'm using this as some form of self-prescribed therapy because I think about things too much and maybe venting one or two of these dark thoughts will help me to sleep a bit more and generally make me a better person? Maybe I really need to conform to the classic example of a 21st century neurotic?

Oh - and I also might review the odd film, book, gig or album. Seems to be the done thing for an inspired young individual such as myself.

Pretty damn awesome start. Maybe I'll write the next post about a past suicide attempt or childhood abuse.